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ya allah . bnyak bgt dugaan yg km berikan ke aq y allah . .
apa yg perlu aq lakuin skg?
perlukah aq bersuara . ato mendiam kan dri ?
perlukah aq meninggalkannya . ?
sanggup kah aq tuk kehilangan dya ?

sllu jea datang dugaan . .
aq taw km ma dy pernah hidup bareng . .
tp skg kalian tuh udah cerai . .
yea aq bs ngerti km ma dy g akan lost contact . .
n aq jga bsa ngerti kalian ttp jd temen..
tp kalu kalian temen. .buad cara kyk temen dnk..

n buad km ajuk . .
sblm aq nerima km jd cowo aq .
bnyak bgt jji2 km ubarin ke aq .
tp stlh aq trima km . knp km kek gnie ?
km seakan g pedli ma aq. .
yea aq ngrti km sbk ma kerja km . .
tp km bsa jea tuh hub dia stiap hri . .
tp aq ? kalu aq diam . .km jg diam .
ap maksd km nich?

kalo gnie cara na. .tolong beri aq waktu buad mikirn jalan terbaek tuk hubungan qt . .
n aq jg mo km mikir ap yg km ingin kan . .antara aq @ dy . .
aq g ngelarang km contact ma dy .  tp km jg harus taw batas dnk . antara teman . .
jgn salah kan aq . kalo sikap q bsa berubah ke km na . .

dear ALLAH

dear ALLAH..

i'm begging you..

to give some happiness for me..

to give some light for me..

keep praying to ALLAH..

to give some strength for me..

there is a lot thing i cant handle 

to much pressure..

to much problem..

one by one..

problem comes and go..

when the problem will stop coming to my life..

YA ALLAH...

i hope i can be patient like my dad..

always think positive in her life..

but it not me at all..

but i believe every test that ALLAH gave to me..

Allah want me to learn n become more matured